Bad day off

Didn’t even attend school today. Woke up with a banging sore head and couldn’t even see. Yup it’s migraine season alright.

Woke up again at 12 and the little firework show had disappeared from my eyes and into my heart. Saw a message that said “Hope you sleep well lovely” and it made me smile from ear to ear.

After not doing much all day I finally went for a bath to try and clear the last of my immense headache. Mum had bought me this cool spray soap that you can mould into shapes and it was amazing. I played around with it for so long!!

Still feeling pretty rubbishy with my migraine but a certain someone has definitely improved my mood today!🔥

Au revoir mes amis✌🏻

Tuesday 3rd January 2016

Omg I’m actually getting worse. Yesterday I overslept by a little and messed up my sleeping routine yeah. But today aw nah. So my alarm was set for 7am and I woke up  – to turn off my alarm and go back to bed /.^

I eventually come downstairs at around about 13:10 and my little pupper couldn’t be happier to see me. After all it had been so long since she last saw me.

The fam came in from work at 2pm and I had only just finished my coco pops and washed the dishes. Oh my days man I’ve never slept in so long in my life!😂 

After getting changed I went out on a long walk. Took my book with me and got through a few chapters. I’m really starting to get into it and tbh I’ll be pretty gutted when I’ve finished it.

I have also accepted the fact that my dissertation won’t be handed in for tomorrow. Heck, I don’t even have a thesis statement yet!  I’m going to have a talk with teachers and tell them how I’m feeling about it all. I’m nowhere near as bad as I was even a fortnight ago though. Now I actually can sit down and work even if it is for half an hour etc. Before I was so reluctant thinking things like why should I waste 10 minutes setting up my laptop to then lay out all of my stationary and try and get back into a rhythm to only work for 5 minutes. Now I’m so far behind I’m literally using any time I have.

I also got a new laptop for Christmas which has been so helpful for doing my dissertation!
So my word of advice for anyone struggling with motivation; even if you are finding it difficult to get on top of things, it’ll all work out in the end! Slowly but surely things will start to fall into place, I can assure you of that. And if it doesn’t come to me and I’ll give you a hug and make everything okay☺️

Au revoir mes amis✌🏻

Day two

Back again🙈 Feeling pretty crappy today. My alarm was set for 8 this morning and I strolled out of bed at almost 11. I tried to get back into my school routine at least, eh? After having breakfast and having a little shower and doing my hair properly for the first time in days, I put on some of my new clothes from Christmas. I still didn’t feel too good but at least I didn’t look a mess.

I’ve got to find the motivation to sit down and do some work today though. My dissertation for Advanced Higher English was due on the 19th of December and I hadn’t even thought twice about it. I feel like I’m letting down my teachers already and it’s honestly the worst feeling in the world but I can’t seem to snap out of it.  Nobody’s pushing me to do anything because they want us to prepare for Uni and do more independent study but I’m just not ready. I still need to be pushed but they don’t understand that and all I’m doing is falling further and further behind.

So yeah, here’s hoping I can read a book then compare it to another in a 5000 word essay before Wednesday.

Au revoir mes amis✌🏻

New beginnings

Hey guys. This is me. I’m not really sure which direction this is going to go in but something overcame me last night, Saturday 31st December 2016. It was really powerful and did mess with my head a little. I’m definitely not one of these “New Year, New Me” kind of people and I never will be.  The same goes for resolutions – I’m always going to be the same lazy and disappointing teen I’ve always been. But something has been going on in my head recently that just gave me the urge to start writing. I don’t know if this will continue throughout the year or even the next week but I do know that I’d like to share my life with you.

Connecting with people and making them realise their potential has always been a big thing for me because I’ve struggled with it so much in the past, however, I now feel that I’m in a comfortable position to start talking about it even though I am yet to overcome my personal struggles.  This isn’t going to be a “pro-you” page at all. It will definitely contain some dark bits and possibly even some triggers so I warn you now. It’s just a way of sharing my own life with others to try and help them understand what they are going through and to show them they are not alone.

So if this helps or even lessens the pain for anybody in the world, I feel my goal has been achieved.

Au revoir mes amis✌🏻

Everything will be alright in the end. If it’s not alright, it’s not the end.